(Picture to right is of Otolaryngologists–specialists in ear, nose, and throat–ENT doctors, performing a procedure.)
It happened 25 years ago and I never forgot it. I’d been in the forefront of women’s consciousness-raising; I recognized that women had been professionally downtrodden for years (in certain fields), and hoping to do my part to balance the inequity, I opted for female doctors whenever possible.
But using gender as sole determinant for my choice of doctor would prove to be a huge mistake …as I’d learn.
At the time, my family was up against an armada of medical woes. At 46, my husband battled cancer that had metastasized into the bones. We had two children who were 13 and 3. One navigated the confusing adolescent world while the other toddled about, facing each new day as an adventure. She couldn’t know that life in our family was anything but normal.
I lived a fractured existence, as I raced from full-time teaching at a local junior high to pick up the younger one from her babysitter‘s, then on to school practices, sports events, etc. for the older one. During that period, too, I supported a husband whose medical protocol mandated he receive a 7-day cisplatinum infusion drip, in hospital, once a month. When that happened, I added daily hospital visits to my packed schedule.
After months of this, the family buckled under the stress.
I became ill with pneumonia and my older daughter suffered a terrible upper respiratory infection. Oh, she’d had them in the past but this one mandated I bring her to a specialist skilled in ear, nose, and throat. I selected one on the basis of gender believing she’d handle us with a woman’s sensitivity. I sheepishly admit: That was my sole determinant.
While in the examination room, I shared with the doctor what we were going through: husband terminally ill, months of chemotherapy, me trying to manage. All the while she performed her examination, peering into my daughter’s eyes, ears, and throat, palpating her, listening with her stethoscope, ordering X-rays (to be done then and there). Finally, she left the room.
Several moments later she returned to announce: “I believe your daughter’s got cystic fibrosis. I think she’s had it for years…No one’s picked it up before.”
I sat speechless, knowing nothing more about the disease than the fact charity drives were held in its honor. When I tremulously asked “How do you know?” She answered: “The X-rays …I’ve never seen blockage like hers which leads me to believe it’s far more than a sinus infection.”
Taking her cue from my ashen face, my older daughter haltingly asked, “What’s cystic fibrosis?” The doctor responded: “Look it up in the encyclopedia when you get home.” It was flip and nasty but I never said a word, stunned as I was with her brutal diagnosis.
I asked “What do we do now?” She answered: “A hospital sweat-chloride test will show it definitively.” I gathered my girls and stumbled out, dazed and shaken, with my older one decidedly worried she was next on the terminal list.
The next day I called a doctor who’d been recommended by a friend, one who knew the medical situation we’d been going through, and I begged him for help. He got us in for the test immediately (there was a normal 3-week wait).
In the days ahead, we suffered additional emotional turmoil: My father got books from the library on cystic fibrosis to enlighten us; we called the CF hotline for more advice; we anticipated accelerated health concerns for this daughter as we went forward.
What did we discover? My daughter didn’t have cystic fibrosis, after all. She had a severe sinus infection. And the doctor who diagnosed this awful disease? Well, she doubtless fulfilled her own need that day to be first of her profession to “call” it, when peers allegedly missed it. She was more interested in preening than in getting ‘it’ right.
All this suffering because I mistakenly thought a female doctor would be kinder when my family most needed support. It was an experience whose lesson was never lost on me: I never gender-profiled doctors again.
Today, we’ve got some truly wonderful doctors–male and female. We qualify them by all means other than gender (which is how it always should have been).
PS…And by the way, that doctor never called to check on my daughter. Just lobbed the bomb and walked away, secure in her misguided belief that she occupied a lofty rung on the ladder of professionalism.
Now, Biddy wants to know: What about you? Got an experience like this one? How do you qualify your doctors?